tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-247526542024-03-07T02:22:39.356-06:00Blogging LifeNever a dull moment..Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.comBlogger656125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-74765860626207760692020-04-21T16:08:00.000-05:002020-04-21T16:08:32.970-05:00Crochet Like a GG as in grandma, or in my case, Grandmama. We, my siblings and cousins, called my grandmother Grandmama until we started having babies and she renamed herself "G". She said it was to avoid confusion because my aunt's grandmother name is "Mamama," but I think it was because she was a little bit gangster.<br />
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When I was little, there was a corner of her living room that was stacked high with yarn and crochet projects. She gave handmade blankets, pot holders, dish cloths, and slippers for Christmas and birthdays. I still have a pink afghan she made. I think it was part of a set she gave to all the girl cousins. I've been thinking about her projects and how they used to be in everyone's houses when we were kids. Crocheted articles were just a given in the family and it made me a little sad that those handmade things disappeared over time. Coincidentally, I was also looking for something to do with my hands to replace my habit of mindlessly scrolling through social media. I often find it necessary to have busy hands.<br />
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I was briefly interested in learning from her way back then, but it was a very long time ago that she taught me to chain and single stitch. Thus, I went to Pinterest and Google and I've started teaching myself. I made this blanket. It's too small and a little wonky, but it's also beautiful and it makes my heart happy to see my kids snuggled under it on the couch. I've started a new, more complicated project and it is teaching me a lot. One of these days it will be finished and Dave will have his very own blanket.<br />
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We are a pretty creative family, but I think most people are, even when they don't give themselves credit for it. I like to write, draw, paint, cook, crochet - all obvious creative endeavors. I'm also pretty good at dissecting a business process and using software to make it fancy and magical - not obvious, but creative nonetheless. Dave generally channels his creativity into words - poetry, prose, teaching, finding the most appropriate (inappropriate?) song lyrics to relate to a Bible passage, and sometimes speaking in Pig Latin for days at a time. Occasionally, he can be convinced to build something and sometimes he'll draw or paint if we're all doing it.<br />
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Ella does all the things - writing, music, painting, drawing, cooking, and anything else you might classify as "arts and crafts" and always has. An assignment with a creative element is her cup of tea and she is completely uninhibited when making things for her friends and family - bookmarks, birthday cards, art for the walls. When we moved into this house, I gifted her my cabinet of art supplies and she has made good use of them - much better use than me in the last few years.<br />
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Luke is less obviously creative, becoming frustrated while painting, but killing it when he draws a comic strip or rigs up a zip line for his stuffed animals or designs a hamster transport out of Legos. He might be the funniest one of us and he can write a very detailed and crazy story. He wrote and presented a poem during Easter lunch - I think he has Dave's talent with words. I've also learned to ask clarifying questions like "What part of this plan makes you think you need my permission?" and give very clear instructions like "You can try it, but you can only jump feet first." As I write this, he is designing a putt putt course in our yard.<br />
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This quarantine has given us the time and just the right amount of boredom to practice our creativity, sometimes together, sometimes at risk to our limbs, sometimes stretching into hours of quiet time while we lose ourselves in it. It feels good to lose myself in a project again, and maybe that project might end up draped over the couch or hanging on the walls. Maybe my friends will get pot holders for Christmas.<br />
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Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-44064792936749085982020-03-25T10:05:00.001-05:002020-03-25T10:16:43.692-05:00Help Me Be Still<div class="p1">
<span class="s1"><span style="color: black; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.301961); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); caret-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">I’m reading the book of Job. It is not my favorite because it’s hard to accept that God allows a faithful and righteous man to lose everything. I don’t like to think about that, but Job is the first of the books of wisdom in the Bible, so I read it because there is stuff in there that I need to know. Also, as hard as it may be, it never hurts to take a good look at myself and admit that I don’t measure up to Job’s faithfulness. </span></span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="color: black; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.301961); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); caret-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">I’m only six chapters in this time, but it struck me this morning that Job has some serious wisdom for friendship and ministry. As the story goes, God points out Job’s faithfulness to Satan and Satan challenges God like, “Yeah right, of course he’s faithful, you bless everything he does.” Then God allows Satan to plague Job so that Satan can see that Job is always faithful, in good times and in bad times (that’s a whole lesson in itself, but not the one that struck me today). Satan takes everything from Job, his livestock, his property, his family, and his health. </span></span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="color: black; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.301961); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); caret-color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">THAT is what struck me. How often do we respond to grief with questioning and correction and solutions? Humans like to fix things. I know I do. I like to know all the answers and tell what I know, and I like to fix things. But, I also know that in the deep, dark grief that has threatened to swallow me whole, I didn’t want correction and solutions and answers. I wanted someone to sit with me and just let me be hurt for a minute. I wanted someone to say, “I love you and you are going to be okay” and “You have a big, beautiful life and you don’t have to live in this grief forever.” </span></span></span></div>
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Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-62530733072109829842020-03-21T13:10:00.001-05:002020-03-21T13:33:27.171-05:00The Shovel and the Sword<div>
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<span style="display: inline; font-size: 12pt;">For months I’ve been praying for families. I’ve been asking God to restore broken and hurting families, to restore Godly leadership at home. To draw fathers and mothers, husbands and wives, back to Himself and teach them how to lead and live in a way that glorifies Him and heals this hurting world. I know that He does these things because I’ve watched Him restore my own, little by little, year by year since cancer snatched us right to the bottom of a deep, dark pit. </span></div>
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I’ve been reading Nehemiah this week because that just happens to be where I am in my current trek through the Bible, and I cannot help but see some parallels with what is happening in the world right now. Nehemiah, a Jewish man and the cupbearer for King Artaxerxes, went to work sad one day because some of the Israelites who had returned to Jerusalem from captivity were in distress. The city walls had been torn down and burned so there was no protection for them. After talking to God about it, Nehemiah shared his worry with the king and the king sent him to Jerusalem to repair the wall. </div>
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When construction started, their enemies began to harass and threaten them and the workers became afraid that they would be attacked. Nehemiah did two things: he reminded them that God had sanctioned the work and would protect them and he stationed armed guards around the work. His response was both faithful (“Remember the Lord, great and awesome...” v. 14) and practical (he set a guard v. 16). When the walls were finished, more Jewish people returned from their captivity. All the people gathered to celebrate the completion of the wall, and Ezra, the priest, read the book of the Law. The people stood up, recognizing the importance of the reading of God’s word in their holy city after their return from exile. </div>
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Now, it wasn’t all easy-peasy after that; the people had spent years in captivity in a pagan culture and developed some practices that went against all of God’s plans for them. Nehemiah had a big job of reinstituting the Jewish culture, retraining God’s chosen people to be holy before God, but he kept up the work, hard conversation by hard conversation. </div>
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While I read and think on this story, I can’t help but reflect on this forced return to our homes, the cancellation of extra-curicullar activities that keep us busy and separate from our families. I’m not knocking the extra things we do to make our lives full - the Lord knows we spend 4 nights a week out of the house during soccer season and I firmly believe sports are good for my kids. </div>
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Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-15664748931636875142018-11-08T19:05:00.001-06:002018-11-08T19:05:05.479-06:00Can you tell us what it means?<div align="left" ><p dir="ltr"><font color ="#000000">"Can you tell us what it means?" </font></p>
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<div align="left" ><p dir="ltr"><font color ="#000000">I have been in Missouri for the week at a training class for my new job</font><font color ="#000000">. I have a new job; Dave has a new job. We don't work at the King's Home anymore so I've been again asking God to show me my purpose since I am no longer in full-time ministry</font><font color ="#000000">. Our schedules have worked so that I was able to participate in our daily devotion via phone every morning and this morning after Luke read the Bible passage, Ella asked, "Can you tell us what it means?" I went through it verse by verse so I could explain it to them, and here I am 12 hours later, thinking about it again</font><font color ="#000000">. </font></p>
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<div align="left" ><p dir="ltr"><font color ="#000000">Just the asking of the question tells me that she is primed to learn. She could have skimmed over it or rushed through it so they could leave for school, but she genuinely wanted to know</font><font color ="#000000">. The way the question stuck deep inside me tells me that this is my purpose right now - that it's okay that there are only two of them and that they have always been mine. I'm supposed to do my part to prepare them for whatever their purposes may be</font><font color ="#000000">. </font></p>
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<div align="left" ><p dir="ltr"><font color ="#000000">The Man-Cub didn't ask any questions today, but he asks plenty and he soaks up the stories and spouts them back at us at the most random times</font><font color ="#000000">. On the drive to church Sunday morning we were discussing why we have appetizers when guests come for dinner and I explained that they are to hold us over when we are hungry until the meal is ready</font><font color ="#000000">. He chimed in, "Yeah, like when you are starving and you are praying to God to send the ravens to bring the bread because you are too hungry - that's when you need appetizers." That's a reference to God hiding and providing for Elijah after he proclaims the drought in 1 Kings 17 plus a little dinner ettiquette</font><font color ="#000000">. Biblically accurate with life application, just the way we like it</font><font color ="#000000">. </font></p>
</div>Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-89331427898359719972018-09-21T08:57:00.001-05:002018-09-21T10:39:38.426-05:00Thorns<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This morning, Tasha, our three-legged-dog, decided to do her own thing instead of following me home from dropping the kids off at school. I waited for her and called her a few times, but she went the opposite direction so I left her and walked laps around the lake. As I approached the footpath to school, I could hear her yelping - not the rude, impatient high-pitched bark she does to go outside, but consistent yelping that reminded me of the kid in A Christmas Story yelling "Don't leave me, come back!" Clearly, she was in trouble, so I slowed down and searched the brush beside the road for her. When I found her, she was chest deep in a thorn thicket on the downward slope of the hill. Stuck. If she had four legs, she might have been able to get out, but she was stuck.<br>
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As I walked home, I thought about how I often go my own way and find myself stuck in a mess, needing rescuing. How God could look at me and say, "You should have followed me, get your own self out of the thorns" but He didn't. He comes to my rescue every time. Jesus literally wore thorns for me. I am just as handicapped by my sin as my dog is by her missing leg, and I need rescuing when I go astray but I have a God who will stomp into the thicket and make a way out for me.<br>
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I was humbled this morning by a dog, some thorns, and Jesus.<br>
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Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-37005977610724791742017-04-26T15:06:00.001-05:002017-04-26T15:06:13.936-05:00 Why We Do What We Do<i>I shared this at the King's Home Hear the Hope banquet last night - modified slightly for reading instead of hearing.</i><br />
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The role of the father at King’s Home is vital because so
many young people in our world have never had a healthy father in their lives.
Psalm 68:5-6 tells us that God is a “father to the fatherless” and he “sets the
lonely in families” – and that’s what the King’s Home youth program does. As
much as possible, we provide a home and family, a place where at-risk teenagers
can rest and grow to become better versions of themselves.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I am Amanda Roper and this is my husband, Dave. We are house
parents in one of the girls’ home, and we currently have 7 girls, ages 13 to 17,
and two biological children, ages 6 and 8. When we were asked to speak about
what King’s Home has meant to us, I meant for Dave to do the talking but God
just wouldn’t stop pouring words into my mind. <o:p></o:p></div>
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King’s Home has meant a complete life change – Dave had a
successful law practice and I was ten years into a career in IT when we packed
up our children and moved into a house with teenage girls. Dave and I used to
spend approximately 60 hours a week apart and now we are together most of the
time. We’ve had to learn how to work side-by-side and communicate well, and we
can appreciate each other’s gifts now that we see how we use them day in and day
out. We live where we work now, so my commute went from two hours a day to 30
seconds. I used to sit at desk for nine hours a day, and now I hardly sit down
for 16. One morning not long after we started this job, I walked out of my
apartment at 6:30 am to relieve my boss’s boss who had covered the overnight
shift. I had traveled with my boss, and with his boss, but I had never greeted
either of them in my living room in the morning. This work is a strange hybrid
of full-time office job and stay at home parenting wrapped up with an
administrative team who supports us and tells us how to fix it when we’re wrong.
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It has given us an opportunity to show our children a life
of service – as James says, to “be doers of the word.” It’s about teaching –
how to shop on a budget, how to be appreciative, and how to serve. It’s about how
to cook, and be considerate, and how to tell the truth in a kind way. Sometimes
it’s about teaching them how to receive the truth so that they can the people
that God wants them to be. <o:p></o:p></div>
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We celebrate with them when they make good grades or get
good news, and we hold them accountable when the NEVER have any homework and
their grades show it. We take them to the doctor and we attend their school
meetings. I’ve been to so many wisdom teeth extractions that the nurse in our
oral surgeon’s office greets me with a hug and calls me by name. <o:p></o:p></div>
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This work is about making sure they have the things they
need and some of the things they want. It’s about figuring out how to squeeze
$800 worth of groceries into a Volkswagon Passat in the Sam’s Club parking lot,
and about teaching them Bible. I love it when I’m teaching our devotion time
and they ask me question after question. Most of the time they are hungry for
the Word; sometimes they reject it, but we do our best to teach it anyway,
trusting God’s promise that His Word never returns void. We take them to church
and we spend countless hours praying over them. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The job is hard, the hours are long, and the exhaustion is
real, but having a front row seat in their lives as God chips away at their
frozen hearts, smooths out their rough edges, and fills their broken places is
worth it. And, there is the bonus of reliving our own youth, too. We go
skating, shopping, bowling, and tailgating. Last year we took them to church
camp, the beach, and to an indoor water park in Ohio – and if you haven’t been
to youth camp as an adult, you’re missing out. We joke that is our retirement
job because some days it’s hard to believe we get paid to have this much fun.<o:p></o:p></div>
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We are officially called Family Teaching Parents because our
job is to teach, but we do a lot of learning, too. We learn the latest slang,
the latest makeup trends, and the latest music. I’ve taken a crash course in
Type 1 Diabetes and I’ve learned how to cope when 10 children are calling my
name and asking all the questions until I fantasize about living on a deserted
island. That usually just means I need a nap. We are learning how to love them
even when they try to prove to us that they are unlovable. They are not
unlovable, despite what their past tells them. I am learning patience and how
to respond gently, how to listen without fixing and how to remove weepy mascara
stains from my clothes. Sometimes they really just need a hug and a good cry. <o:p></o:p></div>
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We love them to the best of our ability, acting as stand-in
parents while they are with us, and then we let them go. Some stay three weeks,
some six months, and some much longer. Some of them never wanted to be at
King’s Home, and some aren’t ready to leave when they go – and we are learning
to say goodbye in both circumstances. I
sometimes feel anxious at the thought of one of them leaving, worried that I
haven’t done all that I’m supposed to do for her, but I’m learning to trust God
with the timing. Their presence in our home is never an accident, so while we
have them, we do our best to fill them with good things – medical care,
education, social skills, God’s word – we pour and pour and pour into their
lives. Then, we give them space to decide for themselves what do with it – much
like you probably do for your own children. At the end of the day, only God can
change the heart and we know that He does and that He <i>is</i> actively changing hearts at King’s Home – the teenagers and our
own. <o:p></o:p></div>
Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-10540540840187760122016-08-21T12:18:00.001-05:002016-08-21T12:18:29.237-05:00Sweet Georgia BrownWe said goodbye today. Twelve years is a very long time to love an animal. <div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmEly3Qdosk2pIRHMsciAqGRmZk7scHZIQA0UOF4h-QnvA-Zv76AYA0fKd9N00LOFBZSIxrREhqH7YusXQCzeL4ixZ7S0GvHLik9Q1HbnvfnS1aRbQQY4ugvbgod-O7l0_bjN1Yw/s640/blogger-image--1818667293.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmEly3Qdosk2pIRHMsciAqGRmZk7scHZIQA0UOF4h-QnvA-Zv76AYA0fKd9N00LOFBZSIxrREhqH7YusXQCzeL4ixZ7S0GvHLik9Q1HbnvfnS1aRbQQY4ugvbgod-O7l0_bjN1Yw/s640/blogger-image--1818667293.jpg"></a></div>We knew she was sick when we went to bed last night, but we hoped it was just a stomach thing and she'd feel better today. Friday morning she had walked three laps and behaved like her normal happy self. </div><div><br></div><div>This morning, I woke up to find Dave sitting in the bathroom floor with her. Her breathing was very labored and she refused to get up. I think we both just knew this was it for her, but we decided to take her to the emergency vet just to make sure it wasn't some freak illness and we'd done everything we could. Dave had to carry her to and from the car. I've never seen a 70 lb dog look so small. </div><div><br></div><div>We got to the vet in time for her to assure us that she was dying and that there was nothing else we could have done to help her. She said she likely had a tumor on her spleen that burst, and that she sees that so often in old Labs. The staff there were awesome. They gave us space to love on her in the busy ER and made an impression of her paw for us to take home. </div><div><br></div><div>We will miss her, but she had a long and healthy life, and you just can't ask for more than that. </div><div><br></div><div>Godspeed, Georgia. You were the very best. </div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEha5lWaOatVYeLGNQgZ1867X6_KZCpQ6f3_AgqBrxo_c6oDFwzcn2pDpvp7ZTPJXJWK7tVM9iIVNi7ruqv08AxaPh9yep2pqjknkf0lqrzIO5uJAtGzAEI1zQyO96iz-w2Ap27hKg/s640/blogger-image--1832418186.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEha5lWaOatVYeLGNQgZ1867X6_KZCpQ6f3_AgqBrxo_c6oDFwzcn2pDpvp7ZTPJXJWK7tVM9iIVNi7ruqv08AxaPh9yep2pqjknkf0lqrzIO5uJAtGzAEI1zQyO96iz-w2Ap27hKg/s640/blogger-image--1832418186.jpg"></a></div><br></div>Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-89836923833274470572016-08-17T15:00:00.000-05:002016-09-20T15:36:56.819-05:00 Just Fishes<p dir="ltr">In our house, the birthday kid gets to choose the menu for their birthday supper. We've basically always done it that way, now we just do it more often. Luke chose fish tacos, green bean casserole, and cookie cake for his birthday supper last month. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Fish tacos, people. He loves them. The only other time I've made them while we've lived here, it was at his request and I cleaned out the freezer supply of Tilapia. I was preparing my grocery list and I decided to check the food room before going shopping, just in case.</p>
<p dir="ltr"><a href="http://amanda-blogginglife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-14-something-green.html">Because I'm kinda thrifty and I don't like to pay for things I can get for free.</a></p>
<p dir="ltr">What's this food room, you say? </p>
<p dir="ltr">The Food Room looks like the stock room of a grocery store and it's full of donated food and stuff. Like, we hardly ever buy meat because we use what we find there. I've become a master at making a meal out of what I find. It's a personal challenge for me. How much free food can I feed them?</p>
<p dir="ltr">I regularly go there with a list of things I know we need in my head and I regularly find those exact things. And weird stuff, like children's multivitamins or tylenol, probiotics, school snacks for the littles, the exact number of cans of Rotel I was about to go buy, a specific kind of hair conditioner that one kid needs. Really, it's mind blowing. Dave and the kids, all of them, are probably sick of hearing my fascination with the food room. It's always what I name as my best part of the day at supper that night.</p>
<p dir="ltr">So, we went to the food room and we collected a really nice haul, cereal, Pop-Tarts, hygiene products, Italian bread crumbs(!), but the meat freezers were looking pretty sparse. I knew the chances of me actually finding Tilapia for fish tacos were slim because I've only ever seen pre-breaded Tilapia there and that was months ago. Just as we were preparing to leave and I had resigned to buy the fish, the man who picks up the donations started unloading his van.</p>
<p dir="ltr">He had 5 lbs of Tilapia.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Do you know how much I need to feed 12 people fish tacos?</p>
<p dir="ltr">5 lbs.</p>
<p dir="ltr">As my pastor would say, I nearly had a spell.</p>
<p dir="ltr">And now Dave really thinks I'm with obsessed with the food room. He said, "It's the best part of your day again, isn't it?" Yes!</p>
<p dir="ltr">But I told him, it's God's most consistent way that He shows me that He hears me. I talk to Him all the time and He answers me all the time but it is never more clear than by provision. And a consistent pattern of providing wierd and trivial things just about does me in. I get so giddy about how much God must love me to send me a bottle of evening primrose oil and five pounds of fish. </p>
<p dir="ltr">When I think about the process that happens to stock our food room, He blows my mind again. It might seem magical when five pounds of fish shows up right when I need it, but it doesn't happen by magic. People make the donations that stock the food room. People bring meals to families when there is illness. People pay the bill to keep a neighbor's power on when he needs help. Obedient people are the hands and feet of God's provison.  </p>
<p dir="ltr">"If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, and one of you says to them, 'Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,' but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit?" James 2:15-17</p>
<p dir="ltr">So I go to the food room and I take my fish and my vitamins and my weird hair products and I vow again to be so obedient that someone else will see God's work in their own life.</p>
Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-8530267166810829502016-08-16T22:51:00.000-05:002016-08-16T22:51:02.162-05:00Broken<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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It was my favorite coffee cup.<br />
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Dave and The Littles gave it to me for Christmas and I loved it so much for how it fit in my hand and for how it reminded me to chill out.<br />
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One of them broke it while putting it away in the cabinet.<br />
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The heartache that followed was disproportionate to the actual event. She was devastated because she knew I really loved it and she had let it crash to the floor. She cried like she had been hurt. I thought she might have cut herself badly on one of the pieces, but she hadn't. It was just her heart.<br />
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When she came running out of the apartment with tears streaming down her face, all I could do was scoop her into my arms and hug her - my heart hurting because hers was.<br />
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It was then that I realized we had gathered an audience. Four teenage girls stood around us to make sure she was okay, but also to see what I would do. The Holy Spirit whispered to me, "They are watching to see if you are mad at her. They are waiting to see if you will be angry."<br />
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I wasn't.<br />
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I turned her face to mine and said, "A coffee cup is just a thing. Did you step on it?" She shook her head and continued to cry as I went into our apartment to clean up the broken pieces. The girls gathered around her to comfort her, repeating my message, "It's okay... we can get another one,,, at least you weren't hurt..."<br />
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I don't believe in coincidence, so I saved that broken cup so I could think about it later. She saw it sitting on the stove at bedtime and started crying all over again, and so I told her what God had whispered to me. I told her she was forgiven before the cup had even hit the floor and I reminded her of her job here: to show others how to be a kid in a family where there is grace and forgiveness, where what you learn is more important than the mistakes you make, where people matter more than things. I told her that she didn't mean to let the cup fall out of the cabinet, but that it was no accident that it had because someone standing in that hallway needed to see that scene play out that night. I reminded her that we work here, and that sometimes that work is work-work, but sometimes it's just showing someone else a different kind of family.<br />
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God is constantly showing me that our reaction to the broken speaks volumes.<br />
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"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart - these, O God, you will not despise." Psalm 51:17</blockquote>
He wants the broken ones - and thank goodness because, aren't we all?<br />
<br />Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-68796801049518025932016-06-04T11:42:00.001-05:002016-06-04T11:42:49.179-05:00Aging and Eight Year-OldsElla will turn 8 at the end of this month. Eight. Eight years feels like a lifetime ago. Time is so tricky that way. I remember things from before we had kids and think "Oh, that was just a couple of years ago" and then I remember that my first born is about to be 8. It really is true that time passes more quickly as you get older. How does it do that?<div>
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I turned 35 in December and I'm finding it very weird. I know 35 is the new 25 or whatever, but I feel strangely suspended between old and young. I'm not really either, but kind of both at the same time. Am I young enough to wear shorts with a 3.5 inch inseam? Probably not. (I do it anyway. It's hot, yo, and my husband likes them.). Am I old enough to be this intolerant of nonsense? Probably not. (The directness of my manner just gets more direct with age. I might be downright unbearable if I make it to 80.) Maybe 35 is the midlife version the pre-teen years.</div>
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Whatevs, man. I'm old/young and my daughter is venturing into 'tweendom - depending on whichever made up source you read that defines life stages. Don't even get me started on the whole Millenial/Gen X/Gen Y nonsense. I think "tween" replaces "pre-teen" now but with a few extra years on the front side? I don't know why we need a new term for a perfectly good one. See "intolerant of nonsense" and "direct manner" above. Also, I may be turning into my father. </div>
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She is an amazing kid. I say that with complete humility. I don't know how she got that way. I don't really consider that a credit to myself or my superb parenting skills. She has been a challenge to me since she looked directly into my eyes and sized me up minutes after she was born. I was still lying half-naked on the operating table being put back together and she was bundled like a burrito and had just been screaming her head off until they put her in my arms. I just stared into those knowing eyes until the nurse told me to kiss her. I mean, is that normal? I know the wide open, wise, old eyes in a newborn aren't but does the maternity nurse usually have to tell a mother to kiss her newborn? We're strange birds, she and I. </div>
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No, her amazing-ness is more a testament to God and all the prayers I've said/cried/screamed over her. I would have jacked it up royally without Him. Parenting is hard. It shines a light into all your broken places and makes you do something about them. Eight years in and I still wonder every day if I'm screwing up. I still pray what I prayed when she was 4 days old, incessantly screaming in the middle of the night while I cried in desperation, "Please God, don't let me screw her up." </div>
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At almost-8, she reads voraciously, devouring 300 page books in a few days, and she always has a book. I love it so much. She has taken piano for two years, and though I often have to harass her into practicing, she says she loves it. She still plays soccer, and watching her transform into a beast on the field satisfies some kind of animal instinct in me. Though she is often prickly at home, she is kind and considerate of others. She keeps her room a hot mess, but she is also very creative and creativity usually doesn't have time for organization. I'm hoping it learns, but hey only another decade and she'll be keeping her messy space somewhere else. </div>
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Only another decade. We have a lot of ground to cover in a decade. Tricky, tricky time. </div>
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As he was unloading the table and planning who to call to help him haul it up our back stairs, I received a call from our administrative office. The men who had toured our house were there to deliver two picnic tables and benches, which they had custom built to seat 14. </div>
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Picnic tables are a very simple, tangible example of things for which we have asked and waited, but it shows us clearly that waiting is hard. Waiting without worrying and planning for all possible scenarios is even harder; I think that's called patience. For me, it's an unnatural state of calm where I have to continuously shut down the worry and planning and empty my head about whatever I'm waiting on. I've had good opportunities to practice over the last few years, but I still struggle. Waiting on God to answer prayer is even harder. Sometimes the answer comes immediately, and sometimes I have to wait and wait. God always answers, but sometimes I end up explaining why I have four picnic tables instead of two. </div>
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Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-13196979212607786022016-05-15T20:55:00.001-05:002016-05-15T22:44:59.348-05:00Career Week"What do you think I should be when I grow up?" he asked me. <div><br><div>"I don't know. That's up to you. What do you want to be?"</div><div><br></div><div>"I don't know," he answered, worriedly. </div><div><br></div><div>"You have time to decide," I told him, "but whatever you do, do it for God. Do it so that people know you love Jesus and so you can teach people about Him."</div><div><br></div><div>He nodded, seriously, "Okay."</div></div><div><br></div><div>That was our conversation this week as Luke dressed in his soccer uniform for Career Week. Three days later, still pondering, "Mom, dogs and cats don't really do much." </div><div><br></div><div>"What do you mean?" I asked him. </div><div><br></div><div>"For Jesus," he said seriously. </div><div><br></div><div>He knows we believe God called our entire family for this work - little kids and pets included. "God uses animals, too," I told him. "Sometimes animals help people calm down when they are scared or mad." </div><div><br></div><div>He's still thinking about how to work for Jesus and I think he'll get it figured out. </div><div><br></div><div>Ella easily chose to be a lawyer for her dress up day, and it fits her. </div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkSZK-pt_rGlho6uMNOU2VvxFWALvf9pNHyP9Dm2WtfDna1VDO1VhHHgdrjlwYMhof13FvAqbuZcs-zPD4sbBzyl7gWWg0zxnflZsteyXrJ2X1TEVLfn4bMP5muH4IFATi3FaDFA/s640/blogger-image--649026892.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkSZK-pt_rGlho6uMNOU2VvxFWALvf9pNHyP9Dm2WtfDna1VDO1VhHHgdrjlwYMhof13FvAqbuZcs-zPD4sbBzyl7gWWg0zxnflZsteyXrJ2X1TEVLfn4bMP5muH4IFATi3FaDFA/s640/blogger-image--649026892.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I still have a list of things I want to be when I grow up, but for them I pray that whatever they decide to do, they do it for the Lord. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">"And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men. . ." Colossians 3:23</div><br></div>Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-64684772753404674742016-03-03T10:39:00.000-06:002016-03-03T10:39:13.239-06:00Who knew?Who is this person who studies the Bible and then makes a plan and then teaches what she has learned?<br />
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She's more than I thought she was, this person who has always said "Dave has the gift of teaching, not me." (He does, though. He thinks and plans and relays information in a way that is astounding and exciting, and I have always enjoyed his teaching as much as any of his students. He sets a high standard because he really is gifted by God with the ability to teach anything.)<br />
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The thought of teaching the Bible used to paralyze me. What do I say? What do I do? What if they don't ask questions? What if they ask questions I can't answer? I needed a least a week of lead time to prepare myself. I freaked out every time and sometimes Dave would jump in and save me.<br />
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But, as I spend more time reading the book, I find that I want to spend more time talking about it. As I get to know these teenagers better, I want to tell them all the things I know about God, about Jesus, about the history of the Hebrew nation and the early church. I want them to KNOW HIM. I want to tell them all the things. I've annoyed Dave with, "You need to teach about __________" enough.<br />
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So, I'm learning to teach.<br />
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I don't know if I'm especially good at it because my daily standard of comparison still blows it out of the water every time he teaches, but I kind of love it. And? At some point I realized that I've actually been teaching for years, not the Bible, but software. That's what so much of client support is about - teaching the client how to use the software, demonstrating how it works, organizing information to answer their questions. It was the part of my job that I loved - learning and then sharing what I learned in a way that others could understand.<br />
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I don't teach like Dave does, but I've been teaching all along. If I could know software so intimately that I could stand in front of a room full of adults and answer questions on the fly, why can't I know the Bible and share it like that? The answer is, there's no reason at all that I can't. Who knew?<br />
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Winter has always left me feeling like I'm hanging on to my soul with jagged fingernails, just waiting for God to rescue me with daylight and daffodils, but this year has been different. </div>
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Is it because I'm not chained to a desk in a cube farm now and I actually get to experience daylight? I seriously think not sitting in a desk chair for 9 hours a day might have saved my life. </div>
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Is it because the black depression that hovered over my household for so long is finally gone? I could write pages on that alone. </div>
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Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-72219221722945870172015-11-02T10:28:00.000-06:002015-11-02T10:28:34.160-06:00Transformation, indeed.It's been almost a year since I wrote a blog post. I started a post back in May about why I haven't been blogging anymore, but I never felt compelled to finish it. I just looked at that draft and found this bit that is still so relevant.<br />
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"I blogged all the way through cancer and chemo and the year after, but the year after that just wouldn't come out. Little known fact, peeps - the recovery from cancer is much longer, deeper, and darker than the treatment of cancer. My household has been in a state of transformation for three years, and while part of that is my story to share, it's intimately woven with three other stories that aren't mine. Two of them are little but growing, and the older they get, the more cautious I become about sharing their lives and their stories. They get to decide if they want to tell their own story one day."</blockquote>
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For a year before I wrote those words last May, I was using the word "transformation" to describe our family. It started with cancer, it grew as my heart changed while I read the Bible from cover to cover, clarity began when we went on a mission trip with our youth group. Then, out of the blue, last Thanksgiving break there was a fateful day in our kitchen where Dave said the often said statement that maybe we should just go to Africa, and this time, for the first time, I said, "Yeah, I think you're right." Africa!<br />
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Dave isn't a preacher, and I'm not a preacher's wife, but we've been prepared for ministry. We are still being prepared. We haven't made it to Africa, but in May, we made a decision to leave our lives to obey God and care for and share Jesus with at-risk teenagers in our area. We moved across the county to live with 8 teenage girls in a group home.<br />
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It's way harder than we expected it to be - and we were told how hard it would be. It's exhausting and heartbreaking and joyous and transforming. See, I mistakenly thought we were coming here to do God's work, and I was so ready. I had it all together. I'd read the whole book, and I'd received confirmation from God in so many ways, and I was going to save souls and love teenagers.<br />
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I'm the one who has been saved here. I trust that God is doing work through me to reach these girls, because I know He will do what He says he will do, but He had plans for me that I never saw. He had plans to transform me, to break me and remake me, to flush out the world and fill me with things I didn't know I needed. He had plans to show me myself in a way I've never seen me, and He has plans to make me fully, desperately rely on Him.<br />
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Africa may still be in the future. Preaching may be in the future. I have no idea because right now I can't see past this place I'm in. I can't even see tomorrow, but I know that He has gone before me and He has plans to prosper me, so when I get there, He'll be there, too. I know the joy of living in the dead center of His will, of not having the plan laid out but knowing it's a good one.<br />
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It was amazing. And quieting. And strengthening. To see how sick he was from the chemo, to see how God carried us right through it without us even realizing how hard it was on him.<br />
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Thank God. I thank Him for the shelter and the strength and the peace that surpasses understanding. And I thank Him for the reminder of During Chemo. Sometimes it's good to think about it and remember the focus we put on every day as important, and the attention we paid to the things that matter. Life is distracting; sometimes we need to be reminded to focus on important things.<br />
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They have the stamina to stay up later while also keeping themselves together. Mostly. That meant no naps and late nights of playing mini-golf and then eating ridiculous amounts of dessert right before bed. There was the one melt down at 4:30 in the afternoon at the side of the wave pool on the 4th day of vacation, which resulted in me holding Man Cub in my arms, rocking, and singing our time-tested lullaby until he passed out. At which point I continued to hold him for an hour and 15 minutes while he slept. It was okay with me. It might have been the last time I'll ever rock him to sleep. I don't remember the last time before that. The fact that it happened while lounging in a low chair with my feet in the water just makes it sweeter. Lord knows I used to hold them on the beach like that.<br />
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All of our stuff fit in our car with space left over. I just knew we wouldn't have room based on the amount of crap I've had to pack in the past and the fact that we downsized my Honda Pilot to a CR-V. I was wrong.<br />
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They can use an iPad 99% of the time with zero adult assistance. That one is a bit ironic seeing as how we dramatically reduced the amount of technology we use at home this summer, and then we bought an iPad. Within 12 hours of the kids first touching it, we were saying things like, "If you ask to play with the iPad again, I'm taking it back." Rules were established, but it did make the driving more peaceful.</div>
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It's so liberating to be able to just throw clothes in a bag and go. To not have to plan for diaper changing and feeding outside of normal meal times. To not have to take bags of toys to entertain them in the down time (they packed one backpack each and were very content with what they brought). I feel like we've passed some kind of parenting milestone where vacationing with the kids has finally become more fun than work. It was lovely.<br />
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I can't wait to plan our next trip.Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-18601296219687985832014-08-18T07:30:00.000-05:002014-08-18T10:40:12.650-05:00FourFrom this...<br />
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Luke is four today. He has grown exponentially over the summer. Nearly every stitch of clothing I bought for him in April is too little. We had to replace his entire warm weather wardrobe, down to the socks, before school started. I suppose all that growing is a direct result of all the eating he's been doing, or vice versa. At any rate, he's been starving all summer no matter what we feed him.</div>
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Recently he has learned to swim, discovered The Mighty Morphin Power Rangers (circa 1995), and started playing with his "guys" (his superhero toys) with the kind of focus that I've only seen him give to puzzles. He still acts out his favorite movies, and he's still stubborn and easily distracted from the task at hand, but he has finally quit throwing himself into the floor in a fit of rage when he doesn't like our answers to his requests. Now, he just asks repeatedly, hoping I'll change my answer, until I lose my cool. I've had to re-employ the, "I've already answered that question, please don't ask me again" response. It's more effective than yelling. </div>
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It's Luke's last first day of preschool, and OUR last first day of preschool. Next year he'll go to kindergarten.<br />
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He was also ready for school to start. There's only so much swimming a kid can do in one summer, and he did it. We told him at the beginning that his Puddle Jumper will not fit him next year (because he's just 2 lbs. shy of the weight limit now and I had to work to get his arms in it), so he had to learn to swim this year. He took us seriously. By July, when his actual swim lessons started, he was already mostly swimming by himself (thanks to Gigi's coaching). By the end of swim lessons, he was jumping off the diving board and swimming to the side by himself. Oh, and he had taught himself to do underwater forward and back flips like it's no thing. He just rolls and rolls and rolls under the water until he needs to take a breath. This summer's pool progress was amazing.<br />
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Now we're looking forward to a time when he counts to 20 and actually includes 15 and 16 together, in order.<br />
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He has been telling me for the last couple of weeks that he doesn't want to go to school. I knew it wasn't true. As usual, when we met his teacher last night, we had to drag him out of there when we were ready to leave. He got up at six this morning and gave no resistance to dressing himself and brushing his teeth. Those are pretty big school morning milestones. <br />
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We summered all the way until 9:15 last night. None of that going to bed early and getting back on schedule a week before school business for The Ropers. Ain't nobody got time for that. </div>
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See those snazzy new shoes she's wearing? She earned them by learning to tie them herself this summer. Praise the Lord. <a href="http://amanda-blogginglife.blogspot.com/2012/01/little-shoes-make-me-crazy.html" target="_blank">Ya'll know how I hate little shoes.</a> Hers aren't little anymore, so it was high time she tied them herself. We gave her a choice: Learn to tie your shoes and you can pick out the craziest, sparkling, pink ones you can find, or don't and we will make you wear gray velcro shoes. It worked like a charm.</div>
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She got the teacher she really wanted, the one she met and loved at reading camp this summer. She has been ready for school to start since camp ended two weeks ago. She even put away her Palace Pets and broke out her classroom supplies to teach her dolls yesterday. I haven't seen her teach in a long time. Now she can read the names of the states on her map and the days of the week on the calendar, so it was pretty neat to listen to her class while I worked. </div>
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Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-41734471498768949902014-06-25T06:25:00.001-05:002014-06-25T06:25:06.733-05:00SixThis stubborn, kind-hearted, smart little weirdo is six today. <div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLYgBFnWbyMjuaLw9jiVidR987KxebrIyaskt-xPiUgt7ETOA_Q607NqOHaAOBiRFZc-Yk4fonL-8EwkOZ6Jh2BNlZx7Bw2IQpz3TQV2_BVyHRXvcWNiwhZ_ra4SL-Mwv5ql2n9w/s640/blogger-image--2054655248.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLYgBFnWbyMjuaLw9jiVidR987KxebrIyaskt-xPiUgt7ETOA_Q607NqOHaAOBiRFZc-Yk4fonL-8EwkOZ6Jh2BNlZx7Bw2IQpz3TQV2_BVyHRXvcWNiwhZ_ra4SL-Mwv5ql2n9w/s640/blogger-image--2054655248.jpg"></a></div></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">It's hard to believe it's been six years since I held her for the first time. That tiny baby is a half-grown kid now - in the middle place where I still catch glimpses of her babyhood and other times I get a peek at the young woman she will be one day. </span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEzeXVKI3MUtPzk7Ts-pNkOJcvUA_Gg4_6gl5PbKha-xIWjva-PS4cWVsUSyXqSBs0i1CP8We9zsasdg4yoEtLyL4VgijuG2ivMcSvsM1W9TNqboeD1LUsE4DwY8rwN5AGjoR2qQ/s640/blogger-image-1716008252.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEzeXVKI3MUtPzk7Ts-pNkOJcvUA_Gg4_6gl5PbKha-xIWjva-PS4cWVsUSyXqSBs0i1CP8We9zsasdg4yoEtLyL4VgijuG2ivMcSvsM1W9TNqboeD1LUsE4DwY8rwN5AGjoR2qQ/s640/blogger-image-1716008252.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">She loves to swim, read and be read to, play soccer, paint, and construct entire make believe worlds for her Barbies, Princesess, and Palace Pets. 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I always wear it in the kitchen. </div><div><br></div><div>Dave said, "She's right there."</div><div><br></div><div>She raced around the counter with her toothpaste-y hand held out and a smear of blood on her face. "Mama! My tooth came out while I was brushing my teeth! I just felt something when I spit the toothpaste out!"</div><div><br></div><div>I exclaimed over it, retrieved it from her hand, rinsed it, put it in a ziploc bag so the tooth fairy can find it, and told her to go rinse her mouth. </div><div><br></div><div>As she passed by on the way back to the bathroom, Dave interjected, "You know, I care about these things too. You can show me, too." </div><div><br></div><div>For real, ya'll, I tried to take a nap today and I gave them both specific instructions to go downstairs and ask Daddy if they needed something. They came into the bedroom no less than 6 times. He didn't see them once. </div><div><br></div><div>But I digress. </div><div><br></div><div>Now, I'm just sitting here waiting on the winged intruder to make her appearance. </div><div><br></div><div>Here's the bloody tooth hole. The tooth itself was almost too tiny to see. </div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsIRA4Pg8PQ0ZK8STBQdMmyIHOcLvc91K7hL6CHQdXg7s38g-RqwwVZTtVJne9pt0NBQVMthtKvDCJclP8YBtixagdzG0wJP2vOA-yHs8hfy65sBdVBZa9baHxGndF5JkhEgnyTA/s640/blogger-image-1616314990.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsIRA4Pg8PQ0ZK8STBQdMmyIHOcLvc91K7hL6CHQdXg7s38g-RqwwVZTtVJne9pt0NBQVMthtKvDCJclP8YBtixagdzG0wJP2vOA-yHs8hfy65sBdVBZa9baHxGndF5JkhEgnyTA/s640/blogger-image-1616314990.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">That's two down and about eighteen to go.</div>Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-13152943321443232822014-06-14T08:00:00.001-05:002014-06-14T09:49:29.853-05:00A Saturday Morning<div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">After chatting my ear off while I grunted non-committaly for 20 minutes, Ella said, at </span><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">7:41 am, "I'm bored." </span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Umm, no, go clean your room. </span></div><div><br></div><div>Then Luke came in, straight from bed, so attired only in Ninja Turtle underpants. He gave us his own diatribe about something we needed to come see. When he finally stopped talking, Ella's only response was: <span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">"Here's the deal - I'm not marrying a boy without a shirt on." She is not impressed with our man cub. </span></div><div><br></div><div>In the next instant, they realized the neighbor was on her porch and made a break for the door to go see her - with my voice trailing behind at Luke: "You aren't wearing any clothes!" It took a moment of convincing, but he got dressed.</div><div><br></div><div>There was only one problem, Ms. Hollie is on the phone, so no<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">w, he is patiently waiting at the end of the driveway to go see her. Ella decided she'd catch her later and went to her room, though it's doubtful she is cleaning it. It's 7:57 am. </span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">And, I am peacefully sitting in solitude.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Good morning, peeps! Have a happy Saturday!</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div>Edited: Before I could even publish this, he came in, went to Ella's room, and they commenced loudly negotiating the rules of play. I'm still sitting in solitude. </div><div><br></div><div>Edited again: Ella came out and asked for an intervention. While trying to convince me to kick him out of her room, she was rubbing my legs until she asked, "Mama, what are these prickly things on your legs?" Hairs, child. Mamas don't wake up with freshly shaved legs. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24752654.post-47758032589564518192014-06-04T17:37:00.005-05:002014-06-04T17:37:53.651-05:00I'm Still HereHey ya'll.<br />
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It's been a while. I've been finding it hard to share our daily lives since we linked our cancer story to the campaign page. I don't think it was a bad decision - the story is out there to be shared - but I have a tendency to treat this space like it's my own living room and we're just having a casual conversation about kids and life, so it was a little unnerving to write while a lot of extra people were paying attention. Lord knows I have a lot of opinions, and 99% of them probably don't need to be said.<br />
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I've also struggled recently with how much to share about the kids. They aren't babies anymore - especially Ella. Funny stories about babies and toddlers and stubborn preschoolers are funny, but funny stories about kids are potentially embarrassing. In being mindful of that, I find it easier to just keep most things private.<br />
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Another thing I've realized in the last few months - raising kids is hard.<br />
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I don't mean the parts about getting up twice a night (or 3 or 4 or 5 or 6 times a night), or changing diapers, or potty training, or teaching manners, or dragging a screaming toddler out of a grocery store mid-trip. Now that both children are fully potty trained and sleeping in their own beds all night (most nights), that stuff seems easy compared to what comes next.<br />
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Sorry, parents who are currently elbow deep in <a href="http://amanda-blogginglife.blogspot.com/2012/09/a-paradigm-shift.html" target="_blank">sausage-making</a> with your sweet little terrors, it gets harder.<br />
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The sleep is fabulous most of the time now, but I'm convinced it's because God knows I need it to be able to handle the hard questions, the heart questions, that I have to answer now. Theirs and mine.<br />
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They ask hard questions. They get their hearts hurt sometimes. They hurt other people's hearts. They test and they push, and they still say "Mama..." so many times that I think I might lose my mind at least once every day. They are learning so much, from everywhere and everyone - some things I want them to learn, and some things I don't. Some things I let go, some things I just cannot, and constantly I'm praying, "Lord show me the way. Give me the words I need when I need to answer, and clamp your hand tightly over my mouth when I need to let it go."<br />
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Let it go! Let it go! I am one with the wind and sky!<br />
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I don't care what they're going to say; let the storm rage on. The cold never bothered me anyway.<br />
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Ahem. Where was I?<br />
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Yes, some lessons they just need to learn for themselves. For instance...<br />
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... your room gets stinky when there are 5 pairs of dirty socks stuffed under your bed.<br />
... you actually CAN find your things when your mother refuses to help you look for them.<br />
... your bed will be wet when you get in it if you leave your wet towel balled up on it.<br />
... your favorite shirt doesn't get washed if you stuff in your toy bucket while "cleaning" your room.<br />
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And God knows sometimes I mess up, too. I have lessons to learn, too. I never considered that parenting would teach me so much about myself. And, I never thought about how hard it is to care for another's soul before I had kids. It's hard work, ya'll.<br />
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Anyway, I'm still here. We're still here.Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05782472376729702883noreply@blogger.com0